here's a romantic love story i found....
I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there were so many other girls.
To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl
Me:Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?
Jin:I cant.
Me:Why? You need to study at home?
I felt disappointment grabbing me.
Jin:No.I am going to meet a friend.
He was always like that.
He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing.
To him, I was just a girlfriend.
The word love only came out from my mouth.
Since I knew him, I had never heard him say I love you before.
To us, there werent any anniversaries at all.
He didnt say anything from the first day and it continued till 100 days, 200days.
Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail.
I dont know why.
Then one day,
Me: Um, Jin, I
Jin: What..don’t drag, just say
Me: I love you.
Jin: you..um, just take this doll and go home.
That was how he ignored my three words and handed me the doll.
Then he disappeared, like he was running away.
The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room, one by one.
There were many.
Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday.
When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him,
and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call.
But, lunch passed, dinner passed, soon the sky was dark, he still didnt call.
It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore.
Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called meand woke me from my sleep.
He told me to come out of the house.
Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.
Me: Jin
Jin: Here,take this.
Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: Whats this?
Jin: I didnt give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now. Im going home now, bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
Jin: Today? Huh?
I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday.
He turned around and walked away like nothing had happen.
Then I shouted.
Me:wait!
Jin: You have something to say?
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me.
Jin: What?!
Me: Tell me
I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him.
But he just said simple cold words and left.
Jin:I dont want to say that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else.
That was what he said.
Then he ran off.
My legs felt numb and I collapsed to the ground.
He didnt want to say it easily
How could he
I felt that maybe he is not the right guy for me
After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying.
He didnt call me, although I was waiting.
He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house.
Thats how those dolls piled up in my room everyday
After a month, I got myself together and went to school.
But what made the pain resurface was that I saw him on a street with another girl
He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me as he touched the doll
I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell
Why did he gave these to me
Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls
In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around.
Then suddenly, the phone rang.
It was him.
He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house.
I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop.
I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him, that its going to end.
Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.
Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?
I couldnt help hating him, acting like nothing had happen and joking around.
Soon, he held out the doll as usual
Me: I dont need it.
Jin: What? why?
I took the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.
Me: I dont need this doll, I don’t need it anymore!! I dont want to see a person like you again!
I spitted out all the words that were inside me.
But unlike other days, his eyes very shaking.
Jin:Im sorry.
He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll
Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!!
But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll.
Then,
Honk!!Honk!!
With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.
Me: Jin! Move! Move away!
But he didnt hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll.
HONK!!
Boom!!! That sound, so terrifying.
Thats how he went away from me.
Thats how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me.
After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him.
And after spending two months like a crazy person,I took out the dolls.
Those were the only things he left me since the day we started going out.
I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days when we were in love
Me: One, two, three.
That was how I started to count the dolls.
Me: Four hundred and eighty four, four hundred and eighty five.
It all ended with 485 dolls.
I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms.
I hugged it tightly, then suddenly,
I love you, I love you
I dropped the dolls, shocked.
Me:i love you??
I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.
I love you! I love you !
It cant be!
I pressed all the dolls stomach as it piled on the side.
I love you
I love you
I love you
Those words came out non-stop.
I love you
Why didnt I realize that
That his heart was always by my side, protecting me.
Why didnt I realize that he love me this much
I took out al the dolls and pressed its stomach,
that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road.
It had his blood stain on it.
The voice came out from the last doll,
Jo, Do you know what today is?
Weve been loving each other for 486 days.
Do you know what 486 is?
I couldn’t say I love you.
coz since I was too shy.
If you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you…
everyday, till I die.
Jo,I love you.
The tears came flowing out of me.
Why? Why?
I asked god, why do I only know about all this now?
He cant be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute.
For that and for that reason to me it became courage to live a beautiful life.
