Monday, January 31, 2005
First of all...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEN !!
he's 17 now... haha... may he be blessed with happiness, success and gd health in the years to come... and not forgetting his thingy btw nunu... hope it goes a long way... may u remain the brand new ken tt we all prefer... lol..
aniwaes, had a boring day todae... slack at home on the comp, read mags ( tt's like all i do dis dayz)..... den at 4, i left for town... tu pon mcm malas actuali.. and usually on dayz wen i don feel like dressing up, i juz wear tshirt, skirt/jeans with my NIKE shoes... hahaha.... and tt was wad i wore juz now... so, i went to Far East to get some new accesories coz i'm sick of my current ones... den since i was dere, i went to borrow a book at Sunny Bookshop... i reali need books by my side now coz i readi finish 2 books eversince... i hope its a nice book.... its called Missing Pieces... well, u noe i like to read mystery stories tt's y... hehe...
after tt, had to go all the way to Paya Lebar to meet my dad coz he 4got to bring his bills and the dateline was todae!! so no choice lah... wah lau!! the queue can die.... dere was 100 ppl in front of us before it was our turn... so after 15 mins, we decided to give up... haha... malas lah... and ooh ya, on the way out, met my ustazah tt taught me 2 yrs ago.. haha.. she rmbr me!! and she look at me from top to bottom... so i gave her tt stupid smile lah coz i was wearing a skirt!! lol...
den went to picked my mum from her offc.. headed down straight to the hospital... my atok got tranferred from NUH to AMK hospital.... sat dere for ard 1hr plus...
went i got home, had a short chat with afiq... hmmm... it was more than ok... after my shower, i called him again coz i had to ask him for help on my bro's hw.. i 4got how to do lah... so well, he did it!! smart wad... not like me... hehe..
orites, wanna go slp now i guess... tmrw muz wake up early accompany my aunt meet her gynae... outz!!
Don't forget to remember me.
11:56 PM
Sunday, January 30, 2005
gooood morning!! woke up rather early todae... maybe bcoz i slept much much earlier den normal at 12.30....ydae was ok... was supposed to follow hafiz to buona vista coz he wanted to do his EZ-link but den last min i couldn't... so sori ah hafiz... tkde niat nak buey ah... jgn marah tau...
aniwae, at 5 i left home with my sis to meet my mum at my relatives place.. i had to follow dem to the airport coz we all had to send my atok and his family back to Melbourne after a long 5 wks holiday here...
wen we reached the airport, all my other relatives were dere.... punye lah ramai.... since the airport was kinda under renovation works, dere were no chairs to sit and the walkway was all squeezy...(is that how u spell it aniwae??) haha.. nvm lah.. so we all juz sat down on the floor ramai2.... mcm nak ader kenduri pulak....
den while waiting, all my kuzzins and i went to Coffee Bean... i forgot to bring my wallet so one of my abg sedare blanja me my fav drink--> pure chocolate ice-blended.... thks a lot... we sat dere for a while and had fun chatting and making jokes... haha.... tt was nice... its been a long time since we have did tt..
aniwaes, at 9, finally!! my atok and his family went into the departure gate... will quite misss dem though.... coz my atok veri funny lah.... he's a real good joker.... and his daughter, hu is my auntie is onli 10 yrs old!! haha.. imagine tt.... she's so much lil den me but i have to salam here... goodness!!
den after tt, my family went to Little India... coz we all suddenly felt like eating Indian Food... my bro and i had our fav cheese prata, my sis had her chicken briyani, my mum her paper tosai and my dad had his naan... the restaurant was like reali freezing cold... and to make it worst i was wearing a boat neck tank-top.... eeeerrrrr.... almoz froze to death!! haha...
later, we all went to Mustafa coz i wanted to buy a MP3.... well, it was the onli place tt was still open at tt time... i was actualli intending to get onli the Creative Nomad 256MB one that coz only $189 but later my mum told me to take the 512MB one which cost $239... i was shocked!! haha.... didn't expect tt.... thks a lot mum!! love u lots...
reali happy now... been wanting dis but have not dared to ask my parents... scared they would scold... but the process of asking was ez and smooth... here's how the conversation went... (
It was juz a casual question) :-
me: hmmmm.... mum, can i get an mP3? we can go buy it after the airport tonite... can?
mum: (without hesitation) okies... go tell ur dad we go Mustafa after the airport...
me: sure!!
so tt was how it went... ez rite?? haha... i couldn't believe it either... well aniwaes, saw my ex, firdaus dere... he sure has becum darker and taller... actuali we didn't see each other... i saw sum1 like him from the top of the escalator... so juz to confirm it was him, i ask him if he was dere... and den he started finding me and finally found me at the stationary section with my family!! haha... tt was fast... he was alone wen i met him... it was just like a 5 secs hi... waste time je carik org...
den later on, i bump into his mum and grandma... i didn't notice dem until his mum called my name... wow! didn't expect her to rmbr me.. so i had to salam both of dem... i intro my mum to dem and they chatted for a while...
after tt, he started smsing me non-stop telling me wad his mum said and asking me to patch with him.... haha... can't believe wad his mum said bout me... hmm.. hapi seh... aniwaes, he kept smsing and koling me asking me the same question until i reach home... finally i fell aslp while smsing him...
tt was all that happened ydae... donno what i'll be doing todae though... orites, tt's all for now... outz!
Don't forget to remember me.
10:17 AM
Monday, January 24, 2005
i reali like this new single from Taufik's debut album coz its reali nice and sure is meaningful to me...
Taufik --> One Last
i never could imagine life without you
from the moment you walked into my world
never knew how long a loving flame could burn
but losing you has forced me to learn
that we can't change the way we feel inside
and every try at love never turns out right
we both know it's better if we just let it go
so let's have
chorus
one last kiss
one last touch
one last tender moment between us
one last dance
to our first song
while pretending there's nothing wrong
let's stay here for a while and
cherish every moment we're in denial
we both know
it's better if we just let it go
everytime i try to take a stand at all
i see your face again and i fall
in the middle of the night there's the scent of a rose
the smell of your perfume i suppose
but we can't change the way we fell inside
and every try at love never turns out right
we both know it's better if we just let it go
so let's have
chorus
baby if we meet each other under a different sky
maybe then things would be much better between you and i
we could always hold on to this special thing that we share
but it's just too much for us to bear
so let's have
chorus
we both know
it's better if we just let it go....
Don't forget to remember me.
1:29 PM
met taufik at Singapore Poly...
sat--> 22 jan 2004
my sis and i got the invites to meet taufik personally at his first thank you /signing party at Singapore Poly...it was sure our luck... reali didn't tot that day would come... hahaha.... aniwae it was great!! after a long wait of an hour, the doors were finally opened!! we were then lead to this auditorium.. the air-con was super cold and the seat was comfortable... we reali enjoyed the show although he didn't sing any of the songs from his album... there were games like Taufik idol where selected fans would have to go up on stage and sing his song... there was also games where selected fans had to mimic his dance moves.. taufik also allowed his fans to ask him ani questions and he wolud ans if it wasn't too personal.. overall, it sure was a great experience..
ps:-- sori to buey u guyz.. this was a reali last min ting... hopefully this sat we can all go out k.. and i tink dis time i reali won't buey k.. so so sorie...
3 jemputan on one day..
sun --> 23 jan 2004
yesterday was a real tiring day... after zhohor, my whole family headed to Bk Panjang for a kenduri.... den at ard 5, we left for my mum's colleague's open hse.... after tt, we headed straight for the hospital... and finally later at nite, we all went over to my aunt's hse coz she had invited all of our relatives over.. phew!! it sure was tiring..
when i reached home, i slept till the next morning... haha... too tired to even change my clothes first.. so tt's y i didn't call u lah afiq to conference... hehe... so sorie...
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i couldn't believe wad i juz did ydae.. it was like omg!! did i juz say tt??? hahaha... aniwae, i tink i did the right ting... u shd noe hu u r.. stop laughing u idiot!!
orites, i'll hop by to update again one day wen i'm free.. outz for now!
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Don't forget to remember me.
11:58 AM
Monday, January 17, 2005
A broken friendship
As I sit alone
With the warm sun on my back
I realise something’s missing
A part of me which lacks.
Could it be the trees,
Reaching for the sky?
Or could it be the children,
Walking home, who pass me by?
Perhaps, I miss the birds,
Chirping sweetly above my head?
All I feel is restlessness
A part of me is dead.
I know now what it is.
Now I realise what is wrong.
It’s the feeling, they call solitude,
A friendship we built is now gone.
Of course I know,
That as we grow,
We have to make our way,
We all must plot a different course,
To go by everyday.
I always thought this friendship,
Would be round,
Just like the moon But you see,
I am not ready,
For this to end so soon.
I miss her happy laughter,
Floating on the wind.
I miss the many secrets,
That circulate within.
The only way to keep,
Our friendship woven tight,
Is to keep in contact always,
And then we’ll be alright
But i decided it was better just to quit,
I thought life was worth living for a moment in time,
But the life I wanted could never be mine,
I thought the hunger inside had been fed,
But now I know, I was just being misled.
And now I think I’ve found another perfect friend,
How long before my heart will be broken again?
Lost love
i gave you my heart
hoping you would keep it safe
i thought you had changed
but now i see your ways
i know what must be done
my heart needs to be free
even though i hurt inside
i know i have no choice
but to say good bye
i can't let you hurt me any more
even though i shall cry late at night
it is time to say goodbye
even though you don't see
the pain inside of me
i see you shall never change
so it is time to say goodbye
my heart needs to fly free
free from pain, free from harm
so now i say the words i fear
now i say goodbye to you, my dear
Don't forget to remember me.
2:48 PM
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
hey kids... try this tongue twisters... they're reali get ur tongue twisted!!
Mr. See owned a saw.
And Mr. Soar owned a seesaw.
Now See's saw sawed Soar's seesaw
Before Soar saw See,
Which made Soar sore.
Had Soar seen See's saw
Before See sawed Soar's seesaw,
See's saw would not have sawed Soar's seesaw.
So See's saw sawed Soar's seesaw.
But it was sad to see Soar so sore
Just because See's saw sawed Soar's seesaw!
A tree toad loved a she-toad
Who lived up in a tree.
He was a two-toed tree toad
But a three-toed toad was she.
The two-toed tree toad tried to win
The three-toed she-toad's heart,
For the two-toed tree toad loved the ground
That the three-toed tree toad trod.
But the two-toed tree toad tried in vain.
He couldn't please her whim.
From her tree toad bower
With her three-toed power
The she-toad vetoed him.
When a twister a-twisting will twist him a twist,
For the twisting of his twist,
he three twines doth intwist;
But if one of the twines of the twist do untwist,
The twine that untwisteth untwisteth the twist.
Untwirling the twine that untwisteth between,
He twirls, with his twister, the two in a twine;
Then twice having twisted the twines of the twine,
He twitcheth the twice he had twined in twain.
The twain that in twining before in the twine,
As twines were intwisted he now doth untwine;
Twist the twain inter-twisting a twine more between,
He, twirling his twister, makes a twist of the twine.
Don't forget to remember me.
2:00 PM
Boulevard Of Broken Dreams
I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know were it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone
I walk alone I walk alone
I walk alone and I walk a-
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Till then I'll walk alone
Ah..ah..
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And where I walk alone
Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk aloneI walk alone
I walk aloneI walk alone and I walk a-
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Till then I'll walk alone
Ah..ah..
I walk alone and I walk a-
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a-
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Till then I'll walk alone
Don't forget to remember me.
1:46 PM
so many things happened these past few days... both sad and happi... haizz.... my life is getting kinda boring...
what i may be saying soon may sound like i'm reali desperate.... but yes!! i don care what u guys want to say but yes!! this is the trutH!! currently now and i donno y, i'm reali in need for love and affection... i guess i'm juz not used to being single... i've never been single for this long and i tink i've had enuff of it... maybe i shouldn't have rejected those proposals.... but haizz... i can't force myself to love them coz i'm still waiting for my Mr Right... haha... hmm... well, he's been treating me well this past few days ever since he's been feeling lonely but i'm reali wondering how long this will last... reali hope it goes on like dis... haven't met him for quite long... kinda miss him though...
friday: busy with surprise bdae party for my dad with mum
my mum and i have been busy with this surprise thing for the last 1 wk or so... my schedule for the whole week have been reali hectic bcoz of this... keep sleeping late coz we can only do stuffs wen my dad is slping... but we were quite good at doing tt... haha... he didn't suspect a thing!!
in the morning, we were bz wrapping the prizes for the games....
then in the afternoon, went hunting for the cheapest and nicest door gift... and guess wad?? haha... my mum and i both look like cartoon... we had to carry this big box from the shop all the way to the taxi stand... it sure was heavy!!! wad do u expect when we are carrying 80 mugs!!
saturday: the surprise bdae party itself at my aunts's voideck
we had to make it at my aunts's voideck coz we didn't want him to see it... so early in the morning, we were busy arranging the table and chairs and setting up the AV system... well everything wen smoothly from dere... it was great.. he was really caught in shock!! haha.. shd have seen the look on his face... well, den after tt we had him to wear this malay version of a tux and sit at the pelamin tt we had catered for from this bridal company... i guess this would sure be a veri memorable 50Th bdae for him....
ps: his actual bdae is tmrw not on the 8th jan....
sunday: now here's the sad part...
my whole family woke up late todae... coz we all slept at 3.30 last nite.. had to clear up the voideck and den lepak2 at my auntie's hse... so it was readi 11 wen we all woke up... after bathing, we all had breakfast or shd i say brunh?? (tt means breakfast and lunch at the same time... ) den after the casual relaxing on normal sundays, my bro and i followed my dad to wash his car... my bro helped my dad washed the car but i was bz clearing up the papers and mess and wiping the leather chairs... it was great fun... we were all drenched after tt.. haha...
den at 6, the ambulance came to send my atok to the hospital... my sis and i followed my mum in the ambulance together with my atok... it was the first time i ever sit in the ambulance.... and it sure was an experience.... got a chance to see what's inside there and the way it speeded was like wow... cepat giler... after reaching the hospital, my atok straight away went into the Emergency ward... it was sad to see him so helpless... we waited there for like 2 hours before we got a chance to talk to the doc... and he said we had to wait for another 2 hours before we can see him in a ward.. and if we wait, it wld be like 10.30, which was pass the visiting time so only my mum got a chance to go into the Emergency ward to see him before we went home...
before going home, went to eat at Pizza Hut first... all of us were starving readi at that time... haha..
monday: the sudden shock...
i just finish bathing and was lying down on my bed, reading a book wen suddenly my mum called me crying... she told me to rush down to the hospital together with my sibs and maid... she said the doc had instructed to do tt... the doc told us to be prepared for bad news...
by the time we arrived dere, luckily, my atok had regain consiousness... so my parents went to talked to the doc.. the doc said my atok can't recover and can only remain like dis or get worst... reali pity him... he is so old and frail... he is now 85 yrs old... seeing him lying on the bed helpless with so many needles makes me cry.. hmm..
stayed at the hospital the whole day ydae.... a few of my relatives came to visit...
i have to go dere again todae...
well that's it lah... been typing too much... haha.. outz!
Don't forget to remember me.
1:45 AM
Saturday, January 01, 2005
may the year 2005 be as meaningful as last year....
2004 left me with so much memories, experiences, and lessons for life tt will always remain in me...
2004 was a year full of many events, changes and challenges...
2004 past so quickly and even before i knew it, i've changed so much, growned up, be more matured, completed my O levels and have successfully remain single for more than half a year...
2004 has changed my life in such a way tt my mum is now more like a friend rather than a mum... we share secrets and problems... and most importantly, the bond and trust btw us is strong and nuthin can ever break it...
2004, a year i'll nvr forget... a year when i met new frenz and teachers whom has made a difference in my life...
thks to all those who has made 2004 a real memorable one 4 me... esp frens like nat, afiq, ken, ravi, ria, dan, raz, and recently hamdan and wan and not forgetting ACE for all the ups and downs tt we shared and for making me a much stronger person now... and also to all the rest tt was not mention, thks!!
Don't forget to remember me.
10:17 PM