Thursday, March 31, 2005
There are certain kinds of love.
Some you think and some you know.
There is one kind of love, I know it's true.
The one where you love me and I love you.
This kind of love has a name.
It's not to bold, it's really kind of plain.
It's a love that only two people can share.
It's a difficult love, I'm sure your aware.
There are so many things you have to endure.
So many things that make you unsure.
Quite a few obstacles you may find.
you might find yourself wondering, "is this worth my time?"
This kind of love takes lots of patience.
It may also require a little bit of maintenance.
When you have doubt.
Think about how this love came about.
When all seems to fail and you want to give up.
Remember the name of this love is " No matter what."
coz no matter wad,
i'm still loving u....
Don't forget to remember me.
11:25 AM
girly-girly thingy!!!
gerls rule todae!! haha.. ok i'm not goin to start another sex-es war here orite!!
well, met cute-lil-froggy at bb bus interchange at 1 plus.. ravi came later.. we waited for him with our bubble tea...hmmm.. isn't tt a norm readi? the gerls having to wait 4 the guyz??
*rolls eyes*
nunu and her fren sara was dere readi wen we arrive at Queensway.... after all the journey dere, tt froggy didn't even buy a single ting!!! hmmm... so we ended up at Macdonalds.. waited for tt Mr Kenko Harrish...haha...
froggy went off soon to meet her baby... den the gerls parted with the guyz.. me, sara and nunu took a cab to Queensway Mrt den we went straight to Suntec... donno how the guyz went dere till they were lost.. lol!
singapore so small how to get lost???
so we gerls started our job-hunting... went to quite a few shops... but we onli managed to apply at 3 shops.. hmm...
never did i imagine me bcuming closer with nunu.. haha.. my thoughts of her at the beginning was miles apart of wad she reali is..haha.... its a great fun being with her..
aniwae, met my mummy later at her offc at 7... den almoz half way home, she realize she 4got to bring back her work files! gosh... so my dad had to u-turn and drive all the way back dere!
den had my dinner and watched TV till 12....
orites, having a conf now..
blog again soon... outz!
Don't forget to remember me.
2:09 AM
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
mannn!
i can't slp...
and i'm having a damn stomach-ache!
gosh....
wad did i eat?
ahhhh....
gotta go slp now!
no matter wad...
juz killing time now actuali...
nitezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
Don't forget to remember me.
2:53 AM
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
i'm kinda bored todae... well, i've been blogging, giving people testimonials, sending people emails and ooh ya, typing tt u noe wad... hmm... wen is it going to end?? gosh... i'm getting tired of it... haizz...but do i have a choice??
well tmrw, will be meeting froggy at 1 to go queensway... she want to buy some clothes.. maybe i will buy too.. hmm... if dere are ani nice ones tt is.. nunu will be meeting us dere at 2... donno bt ken and ravi... after tt, me and nunu will be going on a job-hunting trip... she juz quit her mostress job.. tt's y...haha..
well tt's the plan 4 tmrw... donno if dere'll be ani changes or not..
aniwae, here's the e-mail i send to my mum....
Mommy,
For as long as I can remember,
you always took GREAT care of me.
Now that I am getting older...
well, I mean in the teenage years,
i'm sori if i was ever rude...
but I also know we have been through a lot together,
and now we are going to go through a whole lot more...
Mommy,
I know I am not what you always wanted,
and I know I am not that sweet little girl you always wanted,
but no matter how old I get,
I will always pick up the phone and call my mommy,
and tell her how much I love her,
and how much I need her with me.
MOMMY, I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART!!!
I am seventeen years old now,
and Mommy,
I wanted to say thanks for always being there
when anithin was ever wrong or will bring me down,
when my boyfriend would break up with me,
and most of all,
THANKS for being "THE BEST MOM EVER."
I Love You!!!
I don't love you because you give me everything I want,
but I do love you for being my mom and being my BEST FRIEND!!!
A mother is a child's life while they are growing up,
and as they get older they still become an adult,
but still they need their mommy around,
just like I need you around, Mommy.
Don't forget to remember me.
5:57 PM
Your body's warm
But you are not
You give a little
Not a lot
You're all I want
But not like this
I'm watching you disappear
But you, you were never here
It's only your shadow
Never yourself
It's only your shadow
Nobody else
It's only your shadow
Filling the room
Arriving too late
And leaving too soon
I cannot keep what isn't mine
You left and it lingers on
But you, you were almost gone
It's only your shadow
How can I tell if you mean what you say?
You say it so loud, but you sound far away
Maybe I had just a glimpse of your soul
Or was that your shadow I saw on the wall?
I'm watching you disappear
But you, you were never here
No, no, no
It's only your shadow
It's only your shadow
Nobody else
It's only your shadow
Arriving too late
And leaving too soon, ooh
It's only your shadow
still mising you...
Don't forget to remember me.
2:58 PM
boo!! i'm back!
hehe.. okie guyz... sori for not updating for so long...anione miss me?? haha....ok crap... i was back from KL on sun morning at 2a.m... den stayed home the whole day on sun...
was literally slping all the time... haha.. really tired u noe...
non-stop walking=non-stop shopping....
of coz lah tired!! i even got blisters on my feet... haha...
den like as if i got not enuff of shopping in KL, i went out again with my mum ydae since she was on leave.... hmm....first, we went to the S'pore Post Offc at Paya Lebar to buy the
(4 tiny bears=i ticket) for the Taufik Showcase at Kallang Theatre on 19 Apr... the bears are ok lah.. not so cute though.. and each bear cost $15!! haha.. so ex rite? check out the bears...
and here's the ticx...
after tt, we had lunch at Delifrance... we were supposed to go for movies after tt but realise we got not enuff time coz my dad will be picking us up at 6.30 after work.. so well, we juz went shopping lah... like duh? wad else can we do.. haha... i bought 2 tank-tops and a skirt.. hmm.. i reali need to add more clothes to my wardrobe... i'm getting sick of it readi.. and besides goin to poly in civilian clothes?? gosh... tt's y i reali need to!!
aniwae, check this webby out...
http://www.inlurvewitstars.blogspot.com/
its like she's trying to be juz like nunu... the words used and all those stuffs... u noe wad i mean...
nunu's trademark:"viva la nunu"... its all being copied... gosh... y muz dere be such idiotic people hu loves copying other people.. wad do they get out of it?? where's their sense of originality?? hmmm... enuff said..
btw, nunu i juz realize tt u're juz like me!! i love accesories too!! and i reali have lots of dem... haha... and guess wad?? i do arrange my pretty panties according to colour, design and types.. haha.. tt's y i'm like a total neat freak!! lol..
and ooh ya.. u were asking for suggestions on how u shd keep ur accesories rite?? get dis mini drawers like i do..
its good... juz place ur necklaces in one drawer, den ur earings in another drawer and so on..and to separate the studs and earings, put them into smaller boxes but in the same drawer... like dis...
i hope dis suggestion is good 4 ya.. coz it does work for me... haha..
ok i guess tt's all for now.. till i blog again... outz!
Don't forget to remember me.
1:43 PM
Thursday, March 24, 2005
____WAR OF THE ULTIMATES_____
ultimate lameness...
y is everyone getting so lame?? is it the new trend or wad? but wad d heck? sumtimes its fun.. juz to unwind from the stress or unhappiness in u.... but sumtimes it does get irritating wen its kinda going overboard..
me and ria?? hahaha.... lameness to te extreme! we were ultimately driving ravi up the wall juz now with the awful singing.... lolx... u guyz muz be wondering wad we did i suppose?? haha.. it all started of with last nite and this phrase: I JUZ WANNA LIVE... haha...u noe the way Good Charlotte sings it... yeah but our imitation was far worst.. beyond ur imagination...
ultimate non-stop laughter
3 is a crowd?? nah.. not juz now... went to Creative HQ but bad news... no warranty for tt... muz pay $132 to get it replaced with a new one.. gosh... forget it den...
den went to IMM... its been a long time since i went dere.... aniwae, Ravi was like having a feast at KFC.. he reali ate a lot!! hehe...
and blah, blah, blah.....
well, the heading speaks 4 itself.. yez.. we were laughing all the way... non-stop.. haha..
ultimate irritants!
arggghhh...sumthing juz popped out...
no mood to type animore...
can't you idiots juz live me alone??
fcuk off lah!
i'm not interested at all... eee... getting on my nerves...
we're better off like dis... don't u understand??
wtf!!
can't be bothered to get all stressed up coz of u all...
i got better things to wori off..
ultimate fate...
its been 5 long years... and we finally got to contact each other...
haha... call tt fate??
yez....
so hapi... hehe..
ultimate 'the end'...
its time to let go wen u had enuff..
u say love is all abt holding on...
but sumtimes love is about letting go...
its time to say its 'the end'...
yez its hard... but try...
look at me.. it hurts.. but sumtimes things juz can't go our way...
how we like it.. how we want it..
we can't force it...
rmbr that love hurts..
i'll be here if u need to talk okies...
(gerl, do give me a kol wen u feel like it... let it all out... u'll feel better..)
ultimate mixture of feelings..
one word: rojak!!
anger..
frustration...
pissed..
bored...
love...
sad...
hurt..
lost..
lonely..
beyond words...
jus shoot me!
ok i have nuthin else to say.. sleeping soon...
have to wake up reali early tmrw... leaving hse at 4.30 am!!!
imagine tt! hmm..
going kl for 2 days..
onli me and my parents.. both my lil sibs don wan to follow tt's y..
don wori ah ravi.. i'll be back in 1 piece... not 2... watever tt means..
*rolls eyes*
ok enuff said...
I MISS YOU...
I REALI AM..
Don't forget to remember me.
11:53 PM
ok like they always say... a picture can say a thousand words..
so well it says i miss you.... dere's a few things i've been missing...
i miss him..
(someone veri special to me)
i miss the feeling of being love by the one u love...
(u feel so secure and treasured...its a nice feeling...)
i miss school...
(can't wait to start sch coz i'm sick of these useless lifestyle!!)
--> no sch, no work... nuthin at all !!
gosh... wad's going to be of me...
my brain needs some work rite now!! or its going to be dead sooner or later and won't be able to function animore!! lol...
i miss you... i miss you.... i miss you... i miss you... i miss you... i miss you...
ok enuff about missing dis and missing tt...
or later sumone will indirectly direct....nvm.. hmmm...
*wonders*
haven't had enuff of my sarcasm huh?? ok watever lah...
nat giler came over ydae.. she came straight after sch... gosh!! u guyz cld see how neat my room was until she came.. disaster!!!! haha..
nat admit it! u make a whole big mess....
clothes thrown on the floor...
small bits of food crumps on the floor...
wet table tops (thks to the ice trays....)
tt's enuff to make a mess orite... ahaks!
we took lots of pics... for fun je... we love taking photos wad... haha.. smp naik penat seh...
nice ones... funny ones.. stupid ones... haha.. u name it...
supposed to have slpover but later we had to cancel it coz nat got sch todae... orientataion again! geezz... tt boring lame stuff... 4 days sumore... boring with a capital B!! so maybe we planning to have it nx week... will keep u updated ah froggy... hehe... kroak!
aniwae, thks to dan, he helped me checked the NYP website for the dates of wen the diff courses starts... and thank goodness sch is starting on 30 may! i tot it was july.. haha... the faster the better... but dan starting earlier den me... 18 april.. haha.. so he has to go alone on first day...
okies can't type much... have to bath soon.... meeting ravi and maybe ria later at 12.. donno bt ken... he has guitar class... until den, outz!
Don't forget to remember me.
10:25 AM
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
woke up rather early todae... spent the morning cleaning up my room... check out how neat and clean my room is now... haha...
gosh.. need i upload those pics?? wad the heck.. i did aniwae.. lol...
my two best girlies cuming over later in the late afternoon.. we'll be having a sleepover at my place or shd we call it a mini slumber party?? haha..
aniwae, read ken's entry... and yup it sad tt we're all going our separate ways now... diff schs and even if some of us were in the same sch, its diff courses... after 4 years of knowing each other, it was kinda late tt some of us onli got veri close towards the end of sec 3...
but well, in tt short period of time, we went through a lot... all those lame jokes, funny body movements, cute faces, fun outings we had, prom nite, sarcasm thrown at one another, care and concern we showed to each other... in short, we've bcum like brothers and sisters...
but no matter wad, make sure we keep in touch and stil have our group meetings every now and den... don let the bond btw us get lost juz like tt.. it'll be such a waste... haizz....
tt's life..
tt's fate...
tt's love..
meeting new people, making new friends and parting with the good old buddies...
only living on with the memories we shared...
moving on onli to create new memories...
facing life in a new perspective...
fighting each challenge or obstacle to cross the finish line...
let's stay together.....
sori if u guyz don like ur pics here..... got no other pics ah... hehe...
going to miss u all...
*huggs*
Don't forget to remember me.
11:54 AM
In movies, shows, plays, dramas or ani programme under the sky,
there are just some scenes or storylines tt shapes out vision of romantic love for ever and ever.
but we shd not get too carried away in these fantasies... coz in reality its rarely tt way...
hu's our idea of a perfect couple?
Brad and Jenn?
Becks and Posh?
they too have their share of ups and downs...
Brad and Jenn got divorced after being together for 7 years...
(but it seems like they are working on it and brad has been trying to woo back his ex-wife with surprises and sending her flowers every now and den....)
Becks and Posh got into a mess coz of beck's scandal...
(but things seems to be goin pretty smooth for the Becks now...)
there aren't ani actuali...it depends on the two parties in love actuali.. lovebirds don need role models or a guidebook to keep their flame burning..
however, we all have to agree to the fact that love hurts and its not easy to maintain a smooth relationship but we'll have to continue to take our chances that somewhere out dere, perfect partnership and ever-lasting love does exists...
Don't forget to remember me.
10:40 AM
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
jae results out todae... ria woke me up telling me bout it... hmm... quite ok with mine... coz its sumthing like my 1st choice... but its NYP!!! i wanted to go SP!
i got my 4th choice sak.. wtf? y didn't i get the 2nd one? 2nd one is business admin in SP... i tot i will confirm get tt... haizzz...maybe bcoz they wanted me to get sumthing like wad i wanted in my 1st choice which is media and comm at SP...
oh wells... in fact my mum said its better dis way... distance-wise... its veri near... and also bcoz the course i got is more specialised.... hmmm...i hope dere's a blessing in disguise ard here...
so let me see hu's going where..
PJC--> afiq, shawn, samuel, karen, wee kiat, thiam hee, jie liang
IJC--> iman
NP--> ken, za, atiqah, audrey, siew lian
NYP--> me, dan
SP--> ria, ravi, gulshan, freddy, fiona, brannon
MI--> nat
La Salle--> cheryl, nurul
(i'll try to keep on updating as soon as i noe more okies....)
Don't forget to remember me.
10:15 AM
like u were never before....
i wanted...
u wanted...
we wanted...
i was drowning myself helplessy in the ocean!!
symptoms of the illness...
endangered!
u gave me the missing pieces of the puzzle to fix one by one...
go figure...
get the picture??
yes i do...duh?
oh no... tt's wrong..
it shd be... do i love u?
yes i do...
i reali do....
blame me??
blame u??
no...
never...
FATE.
its unfair..
too much too soon...
lame disease spreading fast....
gosh..
brad and jenn??
yaya papaya??
haha....
Crawling Beneath All
Time stops for no one and moves on unaware
It's easy not to notice
It's easy not to care
Scream just like none is there
Lose all of my defenses
All the little ways you move me
All the pieces you expose
The illusion I held on to
You've got me letting go
Just trying to erase the traces
One more minute turns into another
And its so hard to live a dream
So much confusion circling inside my head
What this one and that one said
Its all an illusion
Cuz I'm still the same person no matter how fast I run
I'm trying to hold on to where it is I come from...
Don't forget to remember me.
9:07 AM
Monday, March 21, 2005
.............
was tt too much to ask for?
too much too soon...
in times like dis, i reali want to thank does hu stood by me....
nat, ria, nurul, ken, iman and esp my mummy...
thks for ur advices guyz..
reali appreciate it...
love u all...
nurul:
i know at this point of time we get really judgemental about things,
but we girls, really sensitive and special, i'm sure when the time comes,
love will bring us to a better place =) i want you to feel better soon and not put yourself in a dreadful position.. *huggs.
everyone goes through this once in a while i guess, just take this as an experience you'll learn in life..
if its meant to happen, beautiful things will come back to you once again..
its all part of living life, facing the ups and downs. dont let the disaster pull you down from moving on with life.. you should take time to put your mind n your heart at ease..
nat:
too much stuffs for me to write it here... (spent the nite talking to her)
i love u lots gerl... u were always dere wen i needed u... ur sound advices.. ur sweet words...
everything means so much to me...thks..
ria :
a lot too... some stuffs she's been keeping from me.. ok her intention was good.. she didn't want to hurt me.. but promise me u will not keep anithin else from me.. juz tell me even if it hurts coz i'm alreadi hurt aniwae....i love u too... thks.. sori i kept u waiting last nite....
ken:
but i can see that u love him alot.
den told me wad happen last nite..*wonders*
reflected about life.... wad life is all about... and how it works... we've been living for the past 17 yrs but we still don get wad life is... i guess we're still too young to understand dis thing call 'LIFE'... 17 yrs is juz not enuff for us to get it juz yet...
life can be a rollercoaster ride... coz it has its ups and downs... true??
life can be a vaucuum cleaner like wad ken said... coz they suck everything out of u till u cease to exist... true??
life can be a clock.. coz we have routines going round over and over again... or maybe bcoz we get hurt over and over again?
well... life juz have too many definitions.. we shd juz live life to the fullest and appreciate wad we have in life before its gone.. live life like dere's no tomorrow...
iman:
juz by being dere and giving some sweet words... its good enuff... juz to noe tt u are dere... sori to let u hear all this on ur bdae... aniwae, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
mummy:
she noes me best.. i didn't even tell her a single thing and she knew sumthing was wrong...
isn't she great.. tons of words, advices poured to me.. hey, its pretty true wad she said...
she definitely noes more abt dis thing called love and life... thks mum... love u lots...
Don't forget to remember me.
11:51 AM
when it gets too cold..
too cold to bleed...
frozen tears...
Look out, (jump back),
Hillside, slip and slide
Feel the pain,
it's no surprise
Look out, look out
I didn't know where to begin
A shallow promise in my ear
No thoughts, no dreams, no wishes, and no fear
The rose is dead
Fall apart my bleeding heart
Nothing left to do
Once in love
I'll be the death of you
Twisting round inside
My heart is burning up, my head divide
But you control these feelings I can't hide
Tried to change my mind
Until the end there's nothing in control of you
It isn't easy but that's all I can do
Take me by suprise
Hide nothing from the shadows
As we chase the clouds away
Pictures in the air
Would you let me take you there
Hold me, I will fall
Hold me close
I hate you the most
When you are the only one
(Never could) forgotten one...
all my life i waited for you...
i'll never stop waiting...
Don't forget to remember me.
10:40 AM
Sunday, March 20, 2005
check out dis story....
there was a guy who fell for a girl.. he wanted her to be his girlfriend but she never accepted him.. she knew exactly what type of person he was.. they became quite close as the year went by and she finally accepted him.. she loved him all her heart until the day she found out he was keeping things from her..
one day, she received a call from her bestfriend telling her that she saw him with some other girl.. she broke down and cried.. he called on that very same day and acted as if nothing happened.. that other girl called her and threatened her not to bother him.. she asked him about that other girl.. he denied.. she knew he was lying to her.. finally he told her the truth.. she was so heartbroken yet she helped him.. she felt betrayed and angry.. since that incident she tried not to trust him completely..
then in the month of october she found out something, another girl in his life.. she was crushed.. a friend told her all about it.. he denied.. she felt as if he was lying to her.. again.. she cried and cried wondering why he did these to her.. she knew she was not good enough for him but why did he still kept her around.. she felt stupid falling for the wrong person.. she could not understand why she loved a jerk like him.. friends told her to give him up and moved on.. but she was being hard headed and followed her heart, giving him chances after chances.. she believed he would changed but she was wrong..
he used to call her everyday and he used to ask her out but not anymore.. she felt lonely.. she felt as if she was single.. maybe she was.. then one day he picked her up from work.. she read his text messages and she got so upset.. she went home without talking to him.. she knew he was a real sweet talker.. she cried again.. she had wasted her tears on this useless jerk and she never realised that before.. she finally did..
he never even spare a tear for her and that opened up her eyes.. she felt dumb, thinking the times she used to cry to sleep every night, thinking why he did these to hurt her..
he never loved her..
he only said the words to make her feel happy and secured..
she never believed him eversince these incidents happened.. to her he was a liar..
one day he could make her the happiest girl on earth and the saddest, loneliest girl the next..
he never realised that all she ever wanted was attention from him.. treat her right.. just call her everyday, that was all.. he never did..is that too much to ask?
she knew his patterns.. it had already been that way..
she tried not to be too elated when she sees him..
she treated him no better other than a friend..
there were times before she wanted to break up with him.. and just go.. dont turn back but he would not let her leave..
she loved him but she couldnt take all the pain and heartache no more..
she never shows him or tells him she loved him because she didnt want to get hurt too deeply.. she had enough of his shit..
she never understand what he wanted from her..
when she never gives him anything.. she is missing him but its no point now..
she is trying to be strong.. whats the use for her to be with a guy who doesnt even care about her?
and now another friend told her that he has another girlfriend..
shes too tired of being too patient with him..
and she aint going to get him back by going with another guy anymore..
shes jus too tired and sick of all these..
she is leaving now.. eventhough she loves him.. but she have to go now.. unless he meant what he said when he told her he will change.. and that he'll change.. for real..
but when he changed, it was too late to say " i'm sorry..."
she was gone....
Don't forget to remember me.
4:01 PM
Saturday, March 19, 2005
had a wonderful dream last nite....
are dreams opposite of reality?
i hope not for dis case...
dreams?
fantasies?
memories?
wad's nx......
all or nothing at all....
the cup is either half full or half empty...
but for now i wld say its half full...
its never too late to mend it...
coz i'm still missing you...
Don't forget to remember me.
12:12 PM
went out with my mummy, my sis and Santa Claus todae...
hmm.. wondering hu Santa Claus is?? haha.. nvm... u guyz don need to noe....
well, we left quite early at 11... went to suntec and had lunch at Pizza Hut...
after tt, we walked ard den we walked into dis jewellery shop... and guess wad??
Santa Claus bought for me a diamond pendant... gosh!!! it was shocking... didn't expect tt reali...
and it was just bcoz i said i like diamonds over at lunch... haha.... how bout tt??
but its nice.. like it a lot.. thks... but i guess its kind of a reali reali advance bdae present...coz Santa Claus wld be going back to States in a few mths time tt's y.. aniwae, thks a lot..
how?? nice rite??
so after tt, Santa Claus went back to work... den we 3 gerls juz went shopping lah... i didn't do ani shopping.. coz i'll be going on a shopping trip to kl nx sat... good huh??
okies lah.. sleepy readi... gd nitez... outz!!
Don't forget to remember me.
12:02 AM
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
summary of todae...
in the morning
-kuzzin came
-watched a video on his hp (u wouldn't want to noe wad it is... omg! he's horrible...)
-chit chat
-he send me off to mrt station
in the afternoon
-met dem at bk batok ( ken was late as usual)
-went queensway
-had waffle ( not nice at all !!!)
-fiq bought shoes.. the adidas one tt he have been wanting for so long.
-not much vans shoes dere for me to see... haizz...
-bus 61 back to bk batok
-went cdans for bowling
-popeye, mario, botero, froggy and roon... (LOL....)
-ken bought ROS SYRAP... (nice ah..)
-bp plaza to play pool
at night
-watched the 9pm chinese drama serial
-send a whole list of songs to ria
-missing HIM...
hmmm... okies tt's it for now...
have to finish up typing a whole stack of papers!!!
Don't forget to remember me.
10:50 PM
simply complicated me...
wad else can i say?
its simply me...
i may seem like a complicated gerl but don get me wrong...
coz even the smallest thing that u do or say can make my day or get me hurt so badly...
sometimes u make me smile with ur little actions but u don realise it...
and for that i wanna thank you...
sometimes u make me cry with ur smallest mistakes but u never noe it...
and for that i hope u noe tt now...
but i'm glad tt u came into my life...
u taught me to appreciate the lil things in life..
u showed me how to cherish wad we have now before its gone...
in short, i love you....
not for who u r but for wad u r..
not for wad we do but for wad i am wen i'm with you....
Don't forget to remember me.
10:10 PM
joke 1
A lawyer married a woman who had previously divorced ten husbands.
On their wedding night, she told her new husband,
"Please be gentle, I'm still a virgin."
"What?" said the puzzled groom.
"How can that be if you've been married ten times?"
"Well, Husband #1 was a sales representative: he kept telling me how great it was going to be.
Husband #2 was in software services: he was never really sure how it was supposed to function, but he said he'd look into it and get back to me.
Husband #3 was from field services: he said everything checked out diagnostically but he just couldn't get the system up.
Husband #4 was in telemarketing: even though he knew he had the order, he didn't know when he would be able to deliver.
Husband #5 was an engineer: he understood the basic process but wanted three years to research, implement, and design a new state-of-the-art method.
Husband #6 was from finance and administration: he thought he knew how, but he wasn't sure whether it was his job or not.
Husband #7 was in marketing: although he had a nice product, he was never sure how to position it.
Husband #8 was a psychologist: all he ever did was talk about it.
Husband #9 was a gynecologist: all he did was look at it.
Husband #10 was a stamp collector: all he ever did was... God! I miss him!
But now that I've married you, I'm really excited!"
"Good," said the new husband,
"but, why?"
"You're a lawyer. This time I know I'm gonna get screwed!"
joke 2
A group of psychiatrists were attending a convention.
Four of them decided to leave, and walked out together.
One said to the other three,
"People are always coming to us with their guilt and fears, but we have no one that we can go to when we have problems."
The others agreed.
Then one said, "Since we are all professionals, why don't we take some time right now to hear each other out?"
The other three agreed.
The first then confessed, "I have an uncontrollable desire to kill my patients."
The second psychiatrist said, "I love expensive things and so I find ways to cheat my patients out of their money whenever I can so I can buy the things I want."
The third followed with, "I'm involved with selling drugs and often get my patients to sell them for me."
The fourth psychiatrist then confessed, "I know I'm not supposed to, but no matter how hard I try, I can't keep a secret..."
joke 3
Four men got together to play golf one sunny morning. As they were heading out to the course, one of them was detained by a phone call.
The other three were discussing their children while walking to the first tee.
"My son," said one proudly, "has made quite a name for himselfin the home building industry. He began as a carpenter, but nowowns his own design and construction firm. He's so successful,in fact in the last year he was able to give a good friend abrand new home as a gift."
The second man, not to be outdone, boasts how his son began his career as a car salesman, but now owns a multi-line dealership."He's so successful, in fact, in the last six months he gave a friend two brand new cars as a gift."
The third man brags that his son has worked his way up through astock brokerage firm, and has become so successful that in thelast few weeks has given a good friend a large stock portfolioas a gift.
As the fourth man arrives at the tee box, the three smugly tell him that they have been discussing how successful their progeny are, and ask what line of work his son is in.
"To tell the truth, I'm not very pleased how my son has turned out," he replies. "For fifteen years, he's been a hairdresser,and I've just recently discovered he's gay."
As the other three recoil in horror, he continues, "but on the bright side, he must be good at what he does, because his last three boyfriends have given him a brand new house, two new cars,and a big stock portfolio."
Don't forget to remember me.
1:28 AM
Monday, March 14, 2005
alone again now... ria was here juz now... we made sushi.. haha...
i have not been doing for so long, so it doesn't reali look nice...
haha... taste-wise i guess its pretty ok lah...
have a look at dis..
haha...keep ur comments to urselves plzzz...
spent the rest of the time playing comp and chit-chatting a lot...
biaselah... gerlz... mane tau diam kan??
haha...
ria gave me a whole list of songs to dl 4 her...
gosh!!
punye lah byk... donno how long it will take sak...
tt time, afiq ask me to dl one song pon i took so long readi...
all thks to my stupid software...
sumtimes it juz doesn't wan to get connected to the net...
haha... gd luck to u waiting ah ria..
aniwae, ydae was great..
no madrasah in the morning coz of the holz...
woo-hoo!
so i cld wake up late ydae unlike every other sun wen i muz wake up at 6.30...
i not like sum1 wad....
every sun he will at least wake up at 2 earliest!!
u lazy bum...
*winks*
hehe..
den in the afternoon, went to my aunt's shop at Bk Timah Shpg Ctr...
got opening ceremony.. congrats to her.. i guess her business muz be doing well...
after tt, went to town with my family.. its been a while readi..
everyone bought shoes ydae except me and my dad!
both my sibs bought converse shoes each...
my mum bought working shoes.. gosh!!
mum, do u reali need dem???
the no. of shoes u have, i tink its enuff to open a shop!!!
oh wells.. its her money... wad can i say rite... lol.
my dad allowed me to buy Vans shoes ydae...
but i didn't wan.. don want to buy impulsively lah...
later regret... so i plan to go ard surveying first...
no idea actuali.. donno converse better or vans better...
Vans.....
Converse....
hmm... wad do u tink ah guyz??
i reali donno how to decide lah...
oklah, nth to blog abt animore...
and oh ya, before i end,
HAPPY 1st MTH SYG!!
LOVE U LOTS....
hehe...
same goes to nat and ham..
juz in case u guyz didn't noe, we share the same anniversary date.. haha..
call tt coincidence or wad???
no idea at all.. hmm.. outz!
Don't forget to remember me.
6:12 PM
Sunday, March 13, 2005
hmmm... mario twin??
the real mario....
ravi....
ani similarities???
hmm....
well even if dere aren't ani, he's trying veri hard to..
but he sure can dance like him.. hehe...
even if sumtimes he get too carried away...
or maybe.......
dis is the mario, u shd be like ah ravi.. lol...
haha... eh sori ah ravi...
i too bored ah!!
or maybe after the Spongebob Movie juz now, i jus got lamer.. lol...
talking bout the movie, i'll give it 3.5 out of 5...
its stupid and reali merepek ah but can't deny its funny ah!!
hahaa.. had a great time laughing for the whole 1.5 hrs...
next movie on the list is Son of The Mask...
well, currently having a conference with dem...
blog again soon... outz!
Don't forget to remember me.
2:11 AM
Friday, March 11, 2005
well... spend my day baking todae...baked chocolate chips cookies.. yummy!! everyone said so wad... not self-praising ah... hehe... i love baking... it takes my mind of ani probs or unhapiness... and best of all, it gives u a sense of achievement if it turns out rite and nice...
it kinda taste like Famous Amos Cookies... seriously... i'll let u guyz try the nx time we meet ah k...
these are the ingredients...
concentrate seh...
mix, mix, mix!
okie, dis tray got burnt... but check the next one out.. haha..
perfect!!! cookies anyone??
farah the cookie baker!!!
haha... okie... satisfaction running thru me now... outz!!
*smiles*
Don't forget to remember me.
7:35 PM
Now,
if love is painful,
if love hurts us so,
why do we love?
Why do we search our whole life for the perfect one?
why do we do all we can to feel the love when its gone?
why do we try so hard to make it all go right again?
This pain, this agony?
Why are we willing to suffer?
why do we even wan to put ourselves thru it?
This torture, this powerful death of self?
Why?
The answer is simply cause it's...
LOVE.
PASSION.
Love hurts our feeling, but it's also the reason our soul heal...
We need someone in life not onli as our better half
but also as a soulmate
where we share everything,
learn from our mistakes and not to repeat it again,
go thru life together,
all the ups and downs,
have a shoulder to cry on,
and not onli as a lover
but also as a best friend tt
understands u well and
to have fun together like normal friends do...
so now i want to thank you ....
Because you make little things means a lot
Because you think of what you've got, not what you've not
Because you bring hope when things look bad
Because you turn sad into glad
Because you bring a smile to everyone's face
Because no-one else can take your place
Because you're someone special.
I love you!
i want to be the only hand you need to hold on to....
Don't forget to remember me.
1:08 PM
Thursday, March 10, 2005
love is hurt...
but hurt is not love...
Loneliness is something you can have even when others are around you...
You talk...
You laugh...
You pretend...
When you lay your head down at night...
the tears come...
The emptiness...
Your heart heavy with the wanting of the love of your dear one...
Memories remind you of the pain loving someone can bring...
How you lived for their happiness...
The trust you gave was only a joke to them...
You still tried so hard to make it work...
Broken vows...
Broken dreams...
Broken hearts...
These burdens can break your spirit...
Whatever happened to the sound of joy...
Kind of like when a girl meets a boy...
Not because he's cute in her reality...
But because of what's inside: his personality...
When there is no one there to comfort you...
And support you while you're going through...
Why should I cry..
Can't the emotion just pass me by...
What is all the commotion when it comes to emotions...
Why can't it just come up and die..
like the waves in the ocean..
I don't know what the world is coming to...
But I know it's time for something new...
Something for me and something for you..
I don't know when it's coming,
but it's way past due...
What you want now I'll never know.
The hurt and pain, I'll never again show...
Don't forget to remember me.
12:38 AM
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
FALL AGAIN.... BY GLENN LEWIS
feels like fire , burns in my heart
every single moment that we spend apart
I need you around, for everyday to start
I haven't left you alone
something about you ,staring in my eyes
everything looking for I seem to find
all this time away is killing me inside
I need your love in my life
Oh I wanna spend time till it ends
I wanna fall in you again
like we did, when we first met
I wanna fall with you again
Ohhhhh
we faught in a battle , nobody won
now we face a mountain, to be overcome
you can't turn away, the past is said and done
I need us to carry on
Oh i wanna spend time till it ends
I wanna fall in you again
like we did, when we first met
I wanna fall with you again
yeahhh la la la la whoaa
you try everything you never thought would work before
when you live
when you love
when you give
when you run
you can always give up some more
baby nothing means anything unless you're here to share with me
I can breathe
I can live
I can die
I can sleep
cause you're always there in my dreams
Oh I wanna spend time till it ends
I wanna fall in you again
like we did, when we first met
I wanna fall with you again
I wanna fall with you again
Don't forget to remember me.
2:14 PM
fiq, juz in case u can't see the small words in the pic, let me type it out here 4 u okies...
I don't need a lot of things,
I can get by with nothing
Of all the blessings life can bring,
I've always needed something
But I've got all I want
When it comes to loving you
You're my only reason,
You're my only truth
I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From Heaven's gate
There's a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
You're the hope that moves me
To courage again
You're the love that rescues me
When the cold winds rage
And it's so amazing
'Cause that's just how you are
And I can't turn back now
'Cause you've brought me too far
i need you here with me coz i miss you like the desert misses the rain...
ps: thks ah ham 4 keeping me company the whole day with ur smses and trying to cheer me up with ur crappy lame jokes.. hehe...
Don't forget to remember me.
1:20 AM
Don't forget to remember me.
12:40 AM
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
mon -->
went out with nat todae.. had a great time... funtastic!
fun, fun and more fun...
pics, pics and more pics..
haha... simply the best.. well i guess it did help to 4get abt stuffs..
both of us had our fair share of probs... and we are in the same shoes now....
so she understood me and vice-versa...
y is dis happening??
no idea... is it me or am i juz dreaming??
haizzz...
fantasies gone with the wind...
oh wells.... jus shut up and 4get it farah!!!
sun-->
went madrasah as usual.. and surprisingly, lessons were pretty interesting... its scary if u tink abt wad my ustazah said... its reali happening.. scaryy but true...
on the way home, met afiq's mum... hahaha... shocking sak..
nat came over to my hse after tt... helped her with her new blogskin and juz chill... den my dad send her back home den we all went to my granny's place.. had a movie marathon dere while eating pizzas.... yum yum!
den had a con with the guyz and ria till 3 plus in the morning... haha..
sat-->
wen to watch HITCH... haha.... its a real MUST-WATCH!!!
those hu have not pls go and watch it... really!
next movie on the list is Spongebob on 17 mar...
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orites, not goin to type animore... currently not in the mood..
the words u say,
the things u do,
u're hurting me...
but u never do realise...
and now fcuk off??
as u wish...
(rmbr tt phrase??)
u wanna noe wad's in my mind?
u wanna noe wad's in my heart?
i'll show u..
my minds thinking...
my hearts bleeding...
and dis is juz the beginning...
so how can it even be a happy ending...
don pick me up onli to see me fall...
Don't forget to remember me.
12:28 AM
Monday, March 07, 2005
CRAWLING IN THE DARK.....
I will dedicate
And sacrifice my everything for just a second's worth
Of how my story's ending
And I wish I could know if the directions that I take
And all the choices that I make won't end up all for nothing
Show me what it's for
Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Is there something more than what i've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Help me carry on
Assure me it's ok to use my heart and not my eyes
To navigate the darkness
Will the ending be ever coming suddenly?
Will I ever get to see the ending to my story?
Show me what it's for
Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Is there something more than what i've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
So when and how will I know?
How much further do I have to go?
How much longer until I finally know?
Because I'm looking and I just can't see what's in front of me
In front of me
Show me what it's for
Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Is there something more than what i've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Don't forget to remember me.
12:32 PM
read nat's new entry...
most of it is kinda true...
and i mean reali true...
she noes it...
the pain and the hurt...
i let out a few stuffs to her...
some stuffs which no one knows except her...
can't blame me for doing tt...
i trust her and we r veri close too...
and oso bcoz she's a great listenener...
oh ya, she's feeling the exact same thing...
so we cld reali connect to each other's problem
veri well...
we are always facing the same thing..
and y is tt?
coz dere are juz some ppl tt donno how to make us
happy...
all they noe is to think bout themselves...
bout wad they want..
bout wad they like...
bout wad makes dem hapi..
bout anithin in the world with the word,
me! me! me! written all over it..
has the word u ever came into their mind??
maybe not..
coz they're selfish...
putting dem first before others....
all this egoistic ppl r juz pissing me off...
but they never do realise it...
all the unhapiness inside me,
u'll never noe...
and u don wish too...
silent cries of help...
never known to u...
all bottled up inside...
unspoken truth never to be revealed...
you'll never know how i feel.......
Don't forget to remember me.
11:17 AM
Saturday, March 05, 2005
a fren in need...
it hurts me to see u cry..
it hurts me to see u getting hurt...
it hurts me to see u getting treated like tt...
i understand it all...
i noe wad u r going thru...
i experienced it b4...
death of a loved one...
totured by a dear one...
love is all about giving in,
trust,
understanding one another,
heartbreaks,
rejections,
and getting hurt...
yes, love means getting hurt..
but is it still call love wen dere's too much hurt??
is it still love wen u love tt person but u don get anithin in return??
is it still love wen u get hurt over and over again??
letting go of a person u love so much its not so easy...
but if u try and believe in urself,
u'll find its not so hard after all...
coz u'll nvr noe wad's waiting 4 u ahead...
to a dear fren,
trust me... let him go...
i love u lots dear fren...
don wanna see u like dis...
it hurts me too...
enuff said...
the rest is up to u...
u decide...
but no matter wad u choose,
i'll be here if u need me...
Don't forget to remember me.
11:52 AM
Friday, March 04, 2005
"Angel of Mine"
When I first saw you I already knew
There was something inside of you
Something I thought that I would never find
Angel of mine
I look at you, lookin' at me
Now I know why they say the best things are free
I'm gonna love you boy you are so fine
Angel of Mine
How you changed my world you'll never know
I'm different now, you helped me grow
You came into my life sent from above
When I lost all hope you showed me love
I'm checkin' for ya boy
you're right on time
Angel of Mine
Nothing means more to me than what we share
No one in this whole world can ever compare
Last night the way you moved is still on my mind
Angel of Mine
What you mean to me you'll never know
Deep inside I need to show
You came into my life sent from above
(Sent from above)
When I lost all hope, you showed me love
(Boy you showerd me love)
I'm checkin' for ya, boy you're right on time (Right on Time)
Angel of Mine
(Angel of mine)
I never knew I could feel each moment
As if it were new,
Every breath that I take,
the love that we make
I only share it with you (you, you, you,you)
When I first saw you I already knew
There was something inside of you
Something I thought that I would never find
Angel of Mine
You came into my life sent from above
(Came into my life, yeah yeah yeah)
When I lost all hope you showed me love
(Boy You showed me love, uh huh)
I'm shakin' for ya, boy you're right on time
(But boy your right on time)
Angel of Mine (Angel of mine, oh mine)
How you changed my world you'll never know
I'm different now,
you helped me grow
I look at you lookin' at me
Now I know why they say the best things are freeI
'm checkin' for ya,
boy you're right on time
Angel of Mine
Don't forget to remember me.
1:31 PM
to all those ppl hu are so free,
and have nuthing else better to do,
plz stop all ur nonsense and
flooding ppl's tagboard!!!
all of us which include me, nat, ria,
hamdan and ken are totally pissed!!
stop being a bloody pain the ass!!
get a life and juz fcuk off!!!
com'on lah...
watever u say is not going
to affect us in ani way!!
its juz tt we have to go thru all the trouble
erasing those crappy msg!!
u tink we have nuthin else better to do??
plz lah... we r not so free like u idiots!!!
so fcuk off!!!
tink wad u want..
say wad u want..
it ain't going to change us...
it ain't going to change the fact
tt u r a total asshole!
Don't forget to remember me.
12:01 AM
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
words left unspoken..
tears left uncried...
now tt i noe ur misery....
all i can say is i'm sorry...
mum, i'm sori i didn't make u proud...
Don't forget to remember me.
4:58 PM
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
a mixture of feelings ran thru me ydae...
both hapi and sad...
both beyond ani form of description...
it was a total unexpected scenario...
but wad's done is done...
now its time to move on and try to shape my future...
overall, i'm pretty ok with my results...
if not for my science, it would have been so mucccch better...
i'm kinda glad tt dere are actuali ppl hu cares abt me w/o me realizing it...
ppl whom i've not met or heard from for so long...
like Ms Nurhuda, yazid's sis and a few others..
well, i don have anithin else to blog 4 now...
juz completed doing carl's blog..
hope he likes it..
its kinda simple though...
aniwae, i'm proud of my dearest afiq...
although i noe he cld have done better...
congrats to u... even my mummy is proud of u.. hehe...
enuff said... outz!
Don't forget to remember me.
10:53 AM
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